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Saturday, 12 December 2020

My Mind And Its Flaws

 If there is one thing that most young people do : is that they make the wrong decisions in life and become victims of their own choices. But when they find the solution to the issue or simply a way out of it , they call themselves survivors. or are called so. Many kids get depressed and some even go to the edge of suicide but when some backup or luckily survive... they become survivors ...for example. But what about body dysmorphia. what about those who learn to finally love their body? do they become survivors? or victims of society?


We are 5 days before prom and i am already stressing out. Not about my clothing or whatever, but mostly about my body and my face. I attempted to do some exercises just to look fit. But sometimes when i look at myself in the mirror i end up crying because i feel ugly. I hate my hair by times as well as my whole face. i have just learned about body dysmorphia yesterday via a tiktok compilation on Youtube. As i was watching these girls talk about it and showing how hard sometimes it is for them to buckle up enough courage and confidence to get out of their houses - i saw myself in them. I am aware that something is psychologically wrong with me but i can't fight it. I know that i shouldn't struggle with the way i look but i do. Most of the time i try to blame it on the comments that i have gotten from my family and the bullies from 3 years ago. but right now the only one to blame is my mind. If there is an artist that i should thank for being this voice in my head that readonates me it would me Tyler Joseph- He is by far my favorite musician an lyricist out there. There this song called migraine that talk about how he struggle with his own thoughts. I have been struggling with body dysmorphia for a few years now and now I am 18 and i still haven't learn to truly love myself. I wish i wasn't feeling like that most of the tome but unfortunately i do. There are moments in life where i would not go out just because i think there something looking odd on my body. Sometimes it would be my hair, sometimes my clothes, sometimes my shoes and most of the time it would be my face. But all of that is just in my mind and i still can't stop thinking about it. Sometimes i think that the way i look affect my relationship with people. 



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My Mind And Its Flaws

 If there is one thing that most young people do : is that they make the wrong decisions in life and become victims of their own choices.  B...